fuck off

but don’t ignore me or insult me

when i found out you didn’t want me

i screamed insults at myself through a pen on paper

lines of cursive overlapping one another

a blue so dark i could see it when i close my eyes

a hole from my words eating through the page

fuck off

but notice me

not like im dirt on your shoe

that pen never bled an insult to you

and perhaps it shouldn’t

fuck off

has a nice ring to it

it sounds rather good to say out loud

it seems like an easy solution

but ‘fuck off’ never works when it comes to you

i can whisper it after you pass

i can scream it into my pillow

i can scratch the phrase down over itself

until it tears my paper to shreds

but you’ve never quite fucked off

not in my head